![]() Time flies, there are only around 80 days left ,for sure my nerves are stired up around the clock . It is such a very moment which will finally decide my fate ,it is never too hard to study.
I know I am not civil servant exams-oriented, I don't have a super-smart brain to defend challenges of that kind which is just nnot to be my liking and not what i am good at, there is only one way ahead for me, the only road which will help me to repick up my honour and the only way to convince the stupid one who once looked down upon me one year ago ,I will never forget the one who once hurted me by saying not too friendly words and broke my heart into pieces, now the powerful time to wittness sth comes, I will spare no effort to make a good showing ,I can't bear the undertreatment brought along by my damned diploma anymore. I will challege myself to the limit....I will fight with my arms I had....yeah, i need to bring some change for myself, i need to impress the people with a brand-new image,from head to toe.
Well,words without immediate and persevere actions will only be empty thoughts .
I miss Gavin and 17, particularly Gavin, the critical one who set a good modle for me and the one who encourage me alot. we were once at the same starting line 2 or 3 years ago, how can i bear the fact that you will graduate soon with a proud Master's degree and I am still like a underdog with nothing worth boasting and talking about ? I am that kind of person who like to keep a sense of self-importance and pride, but after graduation from that shit college, nothing valuable left for me. i can hardly accept the current me. okie, it is nothing beneficial to despise myself, the more i complain, the more time i will waste.
To put it in a simple way, I need to struggle more if i wanna regain my dignity. 21st century is destined to be a cruel world where fittest of the survival is the only principle for living.![]() ......
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